For much of my life, I convinced myself that, if nothing else, I wanted to be famous. I wanted people to know my name and take my pictures in grocery stores and go down in history as that lady who was…famous.
But then as I got older, I realized, I really didn’t want to be that kind of famous. I realized that while the allure of being known for something is great and fills the hunger of my ego, I don’t want fame.
Or, I don’t want conventional fame.
I don’t want the kind of fame that people recognize me in public. I want the right to look like crap and not worry about a picture of me looking like crap appearing on the headline of some gossip blog.
I don’t want the kind of fame that would require me to keep working to have it. I feel sorry for actors who have to do reality TV, not because they want to, but because they need to stay “relevant.”
I want the kind of fame that would allow me to be in the background and take the foreground just to accept awards or something with a group of people.
I want the kind of fame that can go away and I won’t feel like I’m crap because it went away.
I want the kind of fame that gets me in cool hotels.
Have you ever wanted to be famous? What type of famous what you like to be?